2/19/12

Facing the Truth
By Jessica Thompson


It seems like all the days I spend away from you are just days I have to pass time.
In the moment, my smile appears real and my laugh sounds genuine, even to myself,
but later on, the dull feeling grasps at the pit of my stomach and proves otherwise.

I've gone weeks, even months without communicating with you.
Whether a snap reaction, or a gradual process, I begin feeling happy,
lifted, free, like I could fly anywhere. But, maybe not whole.

When I'm not with you, I take on another name,
a new persona, a fresh self. I make new friends.
But they leave, or I leave, and I come back to you.

Somehow, you're at the end each time.
A cycle on a continuous loop.
For a brief moment, I'm complete.

Peace with us never lasts.
Our pride gets injured.
Disagreements arise.

But our emotion,
it's not forced.
It's always real.

At least,
A while,
I'm myself.


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Jessica Thompson is an emerging writer that has had work featured in publications such as The Talon and Heavy Hands Ink. She spends her time dancing, writing, drinking coffee, and taking in the beauty of life. She believes in love, heartbreak, and contemplation, but not regret.